Friday, September 6, 2019

Self Care can be rather broad brush stroke, eh?

I'm terrible about Self Care. I took a bath last weekend, I used a bath bomb. Of course it was a SCENTSY Bath Bomb, just saying.

Today, I just made a hair appointment. I haven't had one since my birthday and my hair is at that unbearable length.

I just ordered deodorant. How big of a deal is this?! Well I have struggled with skin reactions to all kinds of natural deodorants lately and I just went back to my favorite. I left because I didn't want to pay the price for it ... well, there is something to be said about hand crafted, all natural products. I look forward to visiting their store one day. I was surprised to see they have better packaging now, and I'm excited to get the new products I ordered.

I'm excited for reduced packaging! Earl Grey is amazing
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I am calling these three my BIG accomplishments in self care for myself. I cater to my family, my job, my volunteering, and leave myself empty. Not today! I'm going to be grateful I finally accomplished two major tasks that I just haven't been able to get to. =) And maybe now people will be willing to stand next to me.

Saturday, August 31, 2019

The Helper 💜

I am actively working on asking for help when I need it. I have always felt like it was a massive blow to my ego to ask for help. To the point that when I finally DO ask for help, sometimes it’s too late. I want to be better about this. My health depends on it. My shingles aren’t visible or excruciating, but I still get frequent “zaps”. Like this morning. I spent the last week scrambling to do a lot for a LOT of people (totally worth it too!) but I pay for it physically. So! For myself, I will continue to focus on allowing others to fulfill their circle of giving and receiving. 

Friday, August 30, 2019

Athletic Booster Club President, wait what?

Last year was K3's first year in high school. He's a stellar athlete, so I decided to help out with the Athletic Booster Club. Fast forward, to the end of the school year and all the Board Members are leaving. I'm told, "You know more than anyone else coming in, so you should be President!"

Wait, what?

It hasn't been an easy summer, let alone start to the school year.

Screw keeping it together, it's a mess in the first place. I don't know how it's all going to come out but all we can do is try! Luckily, I have another M on the Board, the only other one who didn't have to resign.

Volunteers, you're needed. We can't do this without you. <3

Tuesday, August 20, 2019

Would you ever? My take on those silly 5k's with COLOR

Our Family:
Rickey, Will, Dave, Lili, Micki 
Saturday 10/26/13, our family and Scentsy Family Team did the Run Or Dye 5k that was held in our area. It was the first time we have ever done a 5k together, family or team. 

It was cold, and registration on site started at 7am. We had picked up our race packets the night before and of course, my daughter wanted a tutu. A PINK one of course. 

#GilroyStrong My story

This is my second stint living in Gilroy. This is the first time in maybe 30 years that I attended the Garlic Festival. 

Originally, I had a gathering scheduled for Saturday at my home for a local group and to go to the Garlic Festival on Sunday. Our local group decided to postpone which made attending the Colbie Callait concert possible, so we took the opportunity. We decided to Lyft down Wren to the levee trail. Walked through the gates, security, metal detectors with our hats and cooling towels. We made it across the park and found our spot to enjoy the concert. After, we got ice cream, pesto and shrimp scampi ... I was at complete peace with garlic. As the fest was winding down for the day, my accommodating husband agreed to walk home with me. We talked as we walked block after block, enjoying the breeze. 

On Sunday at 2pm I get the call from Kid#3 ready to be picked up from his shift volunteering for the day at the Gfest. I park in a weird spot on Santa Theresa as he makes his way across the parking area up by CHS. We get home, gather K#5 and K#2 and head to Santa Cruz for the rest of the day. 

We were sitting at DeLaveaga Park, catching the last bits of cell signal before disappearing into the Santa Cruz Mountains. The reports were coming in about the shooting at the Garlic Festival. My husband was back in Gilroy, I reached out to him before heading out of reach. 

When we returned to cell signal my phone was going crazy. Texts, messages, voicemails, posts, it was overwhelming. I told K2 to post a generic post on FB and write a quick text that says we are all ok and send to everyone who reached out. That night when we got home, the sound of helicopters was deafening. We had errands, a life to continue to live, with this huge cloud of fear, uncertainty and violent death looming over our little town. 
"WHO CARES ABOUT GILROY." I would say. Making a statement because no one should be taking the time to answer. That's how I convinced myself that I was always safe here. 

Why would anyone target our town fundraiser? 

That night, I didn't sleep. I couldn't. We slept with every window closed in the house. I kept checking on the kids. The sounds of helicopters was so loud I could feel it. The next day, it was hard to do anything. It feels like a blur and I only remember attending the vigil that night. I was so upset at the national media circus. The amount of noise they create is exasperating. We are a small town. Give us some space. 

When I got home that night I looked at the large piece of metallic sticker sheeting I was given by a local sign company. I decided to make GilroyStrong decals out of it strictly for donations to the Gilroy Foundation. That helped to drown out the sound of the circling helicopters on the second night. We attended another vigil held downtown Thursday that week, downtown. Now, almost a month later, the "GILROY STRONG" banner still hangs across Monterey. 

The City of Gilroy is still restoring Christmas Hill Park. Typically the park goes through a rehab after the Gfest anyway, but this one is a lot more involved. I drove by this morning and security is still sitting at the top of the Miller mound. The corners are still decorated with signs, flowers and animals for the young lives lost. Our town loves you, and we send you peace. <3 

There is so much more pain that trickles through a community when a tragedy like this happens. The best way I have been able to cope is by being with others. Mostly, I've been pushing myself to attend events where I don't know anyone. I was able to attend the Ohlone Elder's Blessing on August 10th. It was powerful and incredible. It's amazing this community that has come together to heal. K5 and I signed up for CPR Certification, and spent most of our day learning what was TV and what to do in a real situation.  

Next, I'm looking to join the local chapter of the Mothers Demand Action. One step at a time. 

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Daily Message 11.20.13

"Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, it can achieve."
— Napoleon Hill: Early pioneer of personal-success literature;
one of the great writers on success

"You can always find the sun within yourself if you will only search."
-Maxwell Maltz: American cosmetic surgeon and author of Psycho-Cybernetics

"When your desires are strong enough, you will appear to possess superhuman powers to achieve."
— Napoleon Hill: Early pioneer of personal-success literature;
one of the great writers on success

Abraham-Hicks Publications

There's an expression in the physical environment that you use to entertain each other. (it doesn't serve you very well) that says, "I worry that I'll go down to the dock, and that my ship will have already come and gone. I'll miss my boat."

And we say, another boat, another boat, another boat. You have no idea how many boats are coming to your dock. It's a steady stream, and it doesn't matter how many of them you've missed. The only thing that matters is what are you doing right now in your vibration? And you can tell what you're doing right now in your vibration by the way you feel.


Excerpted from the workshop in Los Angeles, CA on August 4, 2001

 You will always, almost always, most of you, choose negative emotion over no emotion. Because emotion indicates desire. It's exciting!


Excerpted from the workshop in Silver Springs, MD on April 11, 1999
Our Love,
Esther (and Abraham and Jerry)

Tut: A Note from the Universe

I vote for funny, easy, and breezy. For smiles, giggles, and winks. Serendipities, happenchance, and surprises. Friends, strangers, and admirers. Pink, purple, and green. And crazy, sexy, cool.

This morning.

Or tomorrow morning, if you read this late.

But that's just me.

It's already started,
    The Universe

Always "ask" for a lot! K?

Inner Whispers with Veronica

A New Message From VERONICA

A Simple Process

     "Some manifest into physical reality to bring balance to themselves and to others.  Often a healer will be zealous in their desire to give as much energy as possible to those who desperately need it.

     This full giving can, however, deplete the healer, hindering the ability to help others as they would like.

     In physical reality, everything that exists does so based on an exchange of energy.  This occurs right down to the molecules and atoms that create the substance of the linear.  As a giver gives, it is important that they also allow themselves to receive.

     Leaving yourself out of the queue can have difficult consequences, especially if you are zealous in your desire to give.

     Allow others the opportunity to give back.  It helps their own internal process as well, allowing them to feel that ebb and flow of energy.

     Remember the process: Ebb and Flow.

     It was the way it was designed, thus creating a more Utopian participation.

     Give, receive, give, receive. 

     A simple process really."


Thursday, November 14, 2013

Daily Message 11.14.13

"The most important thing in communication is
hearing what isn't said."
— Peter F. Drucker: Austrian-born American management consultant, educator, and author

"Do not wait: the time will never be 'just right'.
Start where you stand, and work whatever tools you may have at your command and better tools will be found as you go along."
— Napoleon Hill: Early pioneer of personal-success literature;
one of the great writers on success

Abraham-Hicks Publications
A decision is the focusing of the Energy of desire, and the decision point happens when the desire is powerful enough.

Excerpted from the workshop in Silver Spring, MD on April 19, 1997

There is a big mix out there, and there's lots of different things going on, and there is not one way that was intended to be the right way. Just like there's not one color or one flower or one vegetable or one fingerprint. There is not one that is to be the right one over all others. The variety is what fosters the creativity. And so you say, "Okay, I accept that there's lots of variety, but I don't like to eat cucumbers." Don't eat cucumbers. But don't ask them to be eliminated and don't condemn those who eat them. Don't stand on corners waving signs trying to outlaw the things that you don't like. Don't ruin your life by pushing against. Instead, say, "I choose this instead. This does please me.

Excerpted from the workshop in Rye, NY on October 12, 1997

Someone asked us recently, "Is there any limitation to the body's ability to heal?" And we said, "None, other than the belief that you hold." And he said, "Then why aren't people growing new limbs?" And we said, "Because no one believes that they can."

Excerpted from the workshop in San Rafael, CA on February 27, 1999

Our Love,
Esther (and Abraham and Jerry)

Tut: A Note from the Universe

Nothing is worth your unhappiness, not because the awful and ugly don't happen, but because there's always more of the really good stuff.

    The Universe

Let every season run its course and every tide ebb and flow, but think not, dear Micki , that you have no choice of where your wandering mind can go...

Inner Whispers with Veronica

A New Message From VERONICA

These Three Elements Are Available To All

     "As you start the day, keep the concept of no limits in your heart.

     It is easy to accept boundaries while physical.  The reality is rooted in defining what surrounds you in a dense way.

     Why not consider how your soul feels instead of accepting yet another limited moment?

     It is important to remember that your reality is your design. 

     We realize that many will speak loudly that circumstances of negativity attack them every day.  A distortion evolves causing the moment to be difficult or impossible.

     Do not forget that in your soul, there is a perspective of boundless creativity.  Perhaps awake this moment to the probabilities that those current physical limits can be altered.

     Know that ultimately it is all your choice.  Attempt to think and feel from your energy.  If it has been compromised, reach deep within to find the flicker of hopeful energy that can change it.

     No mater how deeply you are embedded in difficulty, there is always hope for change.

     Decide to do it.

     Often it requires courage, perseverance, and a connection to the divine.  These three elements are available to all.

     If you choose to argue, it is your choice.  However, if you use that energy to participate in healing yourself, there is already progress towards something different.

     Lift the limits from your life. 

     You can achieve this."